Warning: High Entropy

2011-12-04T15:33:00.002+08:00

First sem of uni over! :D
Feel like i really struggled alot in this exam. Don't think i will do well. Hope the bell curve god will bless me!

life is pretty good despite this struggle in studies.
she brings colour to my life :D

2011-10-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

First base? Awesome :D :D :D

牵着小手一起走。。。 :)

2011-10-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

Don't think i've ever met someone who's more awesome than you! :D

2011-10-04T07:52:00.002+08:00

I don't know why you're doing this. But if you're trying to solicit an emotional response from me. Sorry. No dice.

There are better ways to seek attention. You can go post on your facebook. "WOO HOO I GOT A BF WOOOHOO!! <3 <3" You target me for what? I don't believe i asked about your situation. I' m just not that interested anymore. Cheap thrill? Grow up la. The world doesn't revolve around you okay.

I have better things to do than to listen to you show off. I think my physics tutorial is more interesting. You wanna try to sting me.. I'll shoot you down.

2011-10-01T10:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know if my interpretation is correct.

If you really read this, count me as extremely surprised.

Didn't expect this. Proves that you still care. At least a little tiny bit. Thank you.

I won't blame you if you hate me. It's actually better if you do. Lessens my guilt.

Stay healthy. Be happy. Enjoy life. =)

2011-09-25T16:45:00.002+08:00

Itchy hands today. Went to see see look look at her blog for the first time in like 2 months.

Feels like i have already gotten over this person. Mostly with the help of someone else who has entered my life recently.

Now i realise how silly i have been. Doing so many things for someone who does not think much of me. Now it makes me realise how superficial this person is. After staying by your side for almost 4 years, now i'm just someone who needs to be left out of your mind. Thanks for that. You're right. I truly deserve someone better than you. For the first time in four years, this is the first time i'm starting to believe that.

Ok this is starting to sound like sour grapes. I sincerely hope you stay happy. Though i have no desire to see you again to verify that. Godspeed.

2011-09-14T17:52:00.002+08:00

One day someone will walk into your life and show you why it never worked out with anyone else. =)

2011-08-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

I don't want to miss or think of someone who won't think of me..

But it still happens.

2011-08-21T14:19:00.001+08:00

Why am i being constantly tormented like this???

Is my karma really that bad??

When will this nightmare end?!

2011-08-07T08:53:00.001+08:00

It seems like life has a retardedly funny way of making you bump into people you want to forget.

-_-

Damnit.

2011-08-06T09:19:00.001+08:00

It seems like when you're down NOTHING seems to go well.

Desktop died for the second time in a week.

Pricked myself with a compass.

What else can go wrong -_-

2011-07-24T09:35:00.002+08:00

It was really tempting to click on that name.

Even though i miss that smile.

But no. I have to protect myself.

Zhen Qin. It's for your own good. Do what you have to do.

2011-07-22T16:54:00.003+08:00

I have a lady in my life.

She is always there for me.

She always takes care of me.

She loves me without expecting anything in return.

My mother. <3

Cherish the ones around you. Especially the ones who are there when you're down.

2011-07-19T08:48:00.000+08:00

"Liking someone does not always bring happiness." - City Hunter

2011-07-18T18:04:00.004+08:00

All can see my smile and my laughter.

Who sees my pain..

只好默默地麻醉自己.

Patiently waiting for the next spark who will light up my life.

2011-06-18T12:36:00.001+08:00

To err is to be human.

To love is to be human.

To feel fear is to be human.

To have courage to face that fear... is to be human.

I am... Only human.

2011-06-17T09:01:00.001+08:00

Treat everyone with respect and kindness.

Because Karma works in unbelievable ways that you can't even begin to imagine.

It will always come back to bite you in the ass.

2011-06-06T16:19:00.003+08:00

A colleague asked this question last time:

"Would you rather be with someone whom you love more than he/she loves you?"

"Would you rather be with someone who loves you more than you love him/her?"

2011-06-03T14:54:00.002+08:00

My passion: No one can duplicate.

My determination: No one can match.

My persistence: No one can deny.

I know what i have to do. I will achieve.

2011-05-28T18:14:00.002+08:00

This exchange took place when my mum bought something for me.

Me: "Why you buy this?"

Mum: "Cos i love my son too much!"

LOL! Warms my heart. Love you too mum! <3

2011-05-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

My glass is half full. No wait, actually, i have two glasses and they're both full!

/Positive outlook on life

2011-05-20T06:46:00.003+08:00

Saw this on Yahoo news about Christy Chung's marriage.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/christy-chungs-marriage-breakdown-184100138.html

What i like about the article is not about Christy Chung. (No idea who's that) But her two quotes.

"The worst thing in this world is to love someone so much and know that he'll never feel the same way."

And

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who do not"

So true.

2011-05-19T12:44:00.003+08:00

我是一个很容易满足的人。

我不对任何人有要求，除非他先提出过分的提议。

我爱送人礼物，但我不要求回报，只要看到灿烂的笑容，我就觉得值得了。

你只要信任我，我就会无条件地为你付出。

我的激情，我的热情，感觉得到它们开始回来了！

=）

2011-05-18T09:17:00.002+08:00

"美女没男人敢追求"

如果反过来说, 超帅的男生, 女生有安全感吗?

"身高不重要"

怎么说,人还是会有点肤浅的. 现实是残酷的. 只靠聪明品德根本不足.

2011-05-18T06:23:00.001+08:00

I think i deserve an Oscars' Award for best actor.

2011-05-17T09:41:00.003+08:00

Live Life, Love Life, BE HAPPY! (:

I wanna try PLANKING. LOL.

2011-05-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

困扰与反省了三天，我觉得自己开窍了。

Out of the close friends i sent out a text to, 1 hasn't replied. All the rest all wished me a good trip in one way or another.

With the exception of one.

Yes it might sound minor and silly but i think it still shows quite clearly my own value to this person.

一句话能知人心。你不值得。

台湾！我来了！！:D

2011-05-07T11:28:00.003+08:00

Thank you mum and dad for trying to cheer me up even though you don't know what happened. =)

Thank you Wei Ann for being here when i need someone to talk to.

Thank you Daniel for accompanying me on msn.

These are the people i love the most.. Even though i don't tell them. Ssshh :)

2011-05-07T08:44:00.001+08:00

One chapter closes, another opens. Fight on, Zhen Qin!

3 months till Uni. Can't wait! =)

2011-05-06T20:12:00.001+08:00

谢谢你。

这是什么感觉？好难受啊。

傻笑着吞下去吧，振勤。=)

2011-05-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

想做就勇敢地去做。不想做的事，别让人逼你做。

每人都有两种脸：笑脸和苦脸。开心的时候大家知。心酸悲伤的时候谁知？

女人永远不能了解男人的心酸，就像男人永远不能体会女人的痛苦.

知足常乐。不要一直有过分的要求，人生会轻松许多。

2011-05-01T18:14:00.001+08:00

要当个好男人真难。我们不应该叫男人，应该叫难人。。

我越来月厌倦我的生活。。做什么事都没激情，没喜乐。

每天好像迷迷湖湖地过。没目标，没方向。

感觉迷失了自己。不知道现在应该干什么。

我的热情，我的激情，都跑到哪儿。

一直想办法麻醉自己。有用吗？

2011-04-25T15:25:00.004+08:00

Privacy and personal space are incredibly important to me. I don't like to feel vulnerable. Asking me about very sensitive personal information and secrets makes me feel like i'm exposing myself for attack.

I guess as a person you can call me an introvert. I can spend an entire day alone in my room, just listening to msic, gaming, or reading. I don't need anybody to keep me company. I can spend an entire day without uttering a single word. Don't get me wrong. I'm not anti-social. I just enjoy my privacy and solo time very much. I enjoy the silence (or rather just loud music without anyone's chatter polluting it). It's a nice reprieve from current society's noises. If i want to put it in a very nice term it would be that i am very independent!

I still enjoy very much chatting with my friends. But i am not someone who will divulge my personal secrets easily. Even my closest of close friends do not know everything about me.
In my childhood i've been betrayed by people i felt to be friends. As a result i am very wary of the people around me. Trust is earned. If you lie to me, one way or another, i will know. It will make it very difficult for me to trust you after that.

Silence. People think silence is awkward. I think differently. Most silence is awkward. There is, however, one type of silence that i am looking for. The silence when you are with someone who is so close to you and understands you so well that you don't need words to convey messages. The silence where two people just truly enjoy each other's company without any need for words to fill in the artificial void.

2011-04-10T22:03:00.003+08:00

I think it's amazing how one person can embody my desire, dreams and hope and at the same time be the source of my despair and frustration.

I won't be weak again.

I would be lying if i said i have zero feelings for her.

I would be lying if i said i'm not waiting. But this time, i'm not waiting for her. Instead, i'm waiting for the next one who will reignite my emotions.

2011-03-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

I will not give in. I need people who can communicate with me. If you are unable to do so, then you are useless to me. I will not waste any time on you.

It's not my fault you are unable to communicate, yet i am expected to change.

If it doesn't matter to you, then why would it matter to me?

I have better things to worry about.

If you cannot acknowledge me as a person, then you are already dead to me.

2011-03-01T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm generally kind and treat most people nicely and respect. But if you take it for granted. If you misuse my trust. You will only regret. What is given freely is also easily taken away and replaced with the opposite.

2011-02-26T10:48:00.001+08:00

You could have been my everything, but now you are nothing, so don't expect anything. At least i learned something! :)

2011-02-19T18:21:00.002+08:00

I know in your narrow little mind that you think the reason why i am so mean to you is because i am petty and emotional about what happened between us. (or rather, what didn't happen.) I admit, there was much satisfaction when you got pissed off, but that was not my main purpose.

I wanted to show you how it feels to have someone ignore you repeatedly. I wanted to show you how it feels to be unappreciated.

Over the years you have grown complacent in making effort to maintain relationships with friends like us. Maybe it's us pampering you too much, letting you just relax in your wonderland without worrying about anything. But when your close friends lose confidence in you, there is a problem.

This is my way of pulling you out of your comfort zone, enforcing an ultimatum on you. At first i wanted to just leave you alone and let you struggle, but at the same time i did not want to disappoint Cassandra as planning you for March was also my design.

Stepping in and abruptly pointing you in the correct direction, with help from Ai Kuen, it seems like things are going smoother. But the rest of the planning is completely up to you.

I hope you learn something from this episode.

P.S. It doesn't matter if you hate me. In fact it's even better. Prevents me from falling back in.

2011-01-31T19:42:00.002+08:00

I'm going to have to disobey my previous post. Must get this out of my head.

I don't know if you saw me, or just didn't bother. I don't know, i can't tell anymore. But i saw you. And we just let each other pass without saying a word. I just can't think of any reason to bother getting close to you anymore. Not when you're just going to push me away again and again.

It is kind of sad. But I think it is better this way. Human self preservation instincts taking hold?

2011-01-29T09:10:00.004+08:00

I've decided not to post anything regarding her from now on. Not just because i can't be bothered, but also because it feels alot like talking behind someone's back. I don't really feel good about that.

I shall post more about personal life and events now. Starting with the cruise!

First things first, the cruise is too short!!!!!! 3 days 2 nights is really not enough! i think maybe 1 week is more suitable. Everyday go out play until the whole day is so packed. Moreover we have 933 activities to go also. No time to go OTOT relax and enjoy ship facilities.

Number 2: THE POOL IS SO SMALL!! Damn turned off. But actually it's ok. Cause i got no time to go swim anyway!!! (refer to number 1)

Sounds like the above are all complaints... now i think should give some compliments. The shows and activities on board the ship are really good! Especially the theatre. The dance and songs and piano were really awesome. 933 activities were really fun too! The gala night was a bit cold though.

The food and service onboard are really top notch! Especially our waitress and our room attendent. The little gestures like the elephant and monkeys really make our stay really enjoyable.

Overall, it has been a really good 3 day getaway. wish it could have been longer.

2011-01-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

I know you're pissed. But guess what, I DON'T CARE.

You can be cold as ice? I can be cold as fricking liquid nitrogen.

Now you understand how it feels to be ignored and receive half hearted responses. Feels like crap? Hey, it's how you treat people.

Complaining about how i don't have any topics with you?

Complaining about how i don't dare to speak to you?

Now you see the difference? It's not about whether i dare to speak to you. It's whether i bother or not. Now, i just don't see the point of putting in effort for someone who can't appreciate others for things they do. You do not deserve my attention. It's just a waste of time.

The Zhen Qin that fell head over heels for you is dead. You want attention? Work for it.

P.S. Knowing you, you probably won't care. You will just treat it as if nothing happened. Cos you don't have the guts to do anything about it.

2011-01-20T15:56:00.002+08:00

I will NOT display any enthusiasm towards anyone unless they show me they can do the same for me. Show me why should i even bother. Then you will get my full attention.

I have learnt my lesson.

2011-01-06T21:41:00.002+08:00

Looking back and reflecting, i do realise that it was hypocritical and childish of me to post such things.

What's the point?

I need an outlet to vent out my bad thoughts. In case i explode.

I was too immature and delusional enough to think that i would be able to break down the "wall" if i knocked hard enough.

Don't get me wrong. I don't regret doing it. I just regret the outcome. I'm not mature enough to accept it. I need to grow up.

I'm sorry i've been so stupid and stuborn to have not listened to the good advice from the friends i have around me. I can only say i've brought this on myself.

Guys, next time if i'm not listening to your advice, please slap me really hard. THANKS!!

2011-01-04T19:29:00.002+08:00

You've been online for quite a while the past 3 days. I've also tried to talk to you for the past 3 days.

I have come to one conclusion. After 4 years, you have not changed ONE BIT.

I also realise I really have nothing else to say to you anymore.

For someone who is so utterly and totally unable to start or maintain a conversation, you really like to complain when people don't have anything to talk to you about.

I think you really do not deserve to complain.

2011-01-01T12:24:00.003+08:00

Why is it that, after so many years, I'm still so conflicted?

I'm getting really tired of playing this perpetual hot and cold cat and mouse game.

I'm very tired of chasing someone who is totally unreceptive and unappreciative of me.

I'm tired of shouldering all the blame for why there's no progression.

I'm tired of wasting all my efforts.

I'm very tired of just being a joke.

I'm not perfect. So aren't you. Nobody is.

While i have problems, I feel that you're the one that needs to change the most.

Both of us are so stuborn.. But it's not even a good trait to have.

I admit it. I'm still attracted to her.

I think it's better if i don't have you in my life for now.

I'll just let time work it's mysterious magic.

Maybe i'll meet someone new in time to come.

Maybe you're just a speedbump that i have to overcome. Who knows?

Now it's 2011. Please excuse me as it's my turn to "闭门造舟".

One day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is love? How can I find it?"

His teacher -Socrates answered, "There is a vast wheat field in front. Walk
forward without turning back, and pick only one stalk. If you find the
most magnificent stalk, then you have found love."

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with empty hands,
having picked nothing.

His teacher asked, "Why did you not pick any stalk?"

Plato answered, "Because I could only pick once, and yet I could not turn
back. I did find the most magnificent stalk, but did not know if there
were any better ones ahead, so I did not pick it. As I walked further, the
stalks that I saw were not as good as the earlier one, so I did not pick
any in the end.

His teacher then said, "And that is love."

On another day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is marriage? How can I
Find it?"

His teacher answered, "There is a thriving forest in front. Walk forward
without turning back, and chop down only one tree. If you find the tallest
tree, then you have found marriage."

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with a tree. The tree
was not thriving, and it was not tall either. It was only an ordinary
tree.

His teacher asked, "Why did you chop down such an ordinary tree?"

Plato answered, "Because of my previous experience. I walked halfway
through the forest, but returned with empty hands. This time, I saw this
tree, and I felt that it was not bad, so I chopped it down and brought it
back. I did not want to miss the opportunity."

His teacher then said, "And that is marriage."

2010-12-30T07:59:00.002+08:00

Sometimes being too nice to people just means you get taken advantaged of. I think i need to get in touch with my angsty side more often. So that people appreciate when i'm being nice. Otherwise i think i will just explode sometime in the future.

I'm tired of just being "the nice guy".

2010-12-23T13:59:00.003+08:00

New year resolutions:

1) Don't be such a wimp
2) Be more direct
3) Be more harsh on myself and others
4) Do more crazy things
5) Don't be so silly
6) Talk more
7) Eat less
8) Do more crazy things(again)
9) Spend more money on myself
10)Learn how to be a "bad guy" instead of always being the "good guy"

The old Zhen Qin has died. Time to make some changes to my life.

2010-11-10T13:27:00.001+08:00

2010-07-13T22:31:00.002+08:00

first i feel angry

then i feel disappointed

now i feel -_- zzz

ah whatever

anyone wanna watch despicable me?

2010-07-05T19:28:00.004+08:00

I wonder, 10 years from now, where will i be?

Will i still be so close with my friends?

Will i fulfill some of my aspirations and dreams?

Will i be a successful person?

Will i make my parents happy?

The future seems so far away.

Suddenly hearing about a friend breaking up in a relationship makes me sad. That guy is such a dumbass. If i had someone who's willing to be with me for 3 years+, i'll make sure to treat her right and make her happy.

Even Cassy's not enjoying her time in China as much as she should be.

Why's the world so full of bad news? Can we have some good news?

My superiors like to put us through shit. For example there was a small hole in my working T-shirt. He just came up to me and tore open and enlarged the hole. Even though it was embarrassing, i was still smiling and laughing. Because i know there was no point in being angry or sad. I know he was just pulling a practical joke and the situation would turn worse if i couldn't take the joke. Sometimes he will ask: "Wa, i tekan you so much, you still can smile." I can't help it. I prefer to be happy. Hahahaha.

Next time someone does something bad to you, just smile, because inside you know the other person is just an idiot! :P

2010-06-11T09:16:00.002+08:00

Why's so many bad things happening now?

Why's everything so screwed up recently?

I need to pull up my socks. Clean up my act.

P.S. Don't judge other people. Especially when you don't know the person.

Don't judge me, when you don't know me.

Don't judge me, when i don't even bloody hell know who you are!

2010-05-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

自己一个人久了，真的会上瘾。
可是，我的心还是告诉我，
默默地，痴痴地等着。

我真的好傻哦。。:）

2010-05-25T10:05:00.005+08:00

Recently getting very addicted to "30 seconds to mars" recommended by a colleague. The songs are kind of moody yet quite catchy. Haha.

To be honest, i don't really understand the concept of idols. To me, celebrities and idols are just people, just like us. Sure, i admire the fact that they are able to stand up and perform for large crowds without breaking a sweat. But is there such a need to treat them like gods? There's a large difference in being a fan and being absolutely completely nuts! I am a fan of many artists, but i never had an idol. I admire their work(eg. their music and videos) but usually never the artist themself. Mainly because there isn't much of a point. Why care about a person whom you might never speak directly to? Even if you get to speak to him or her, you will be forgotten in the next moment. To artists, you are just a number count in their number of fans. Unimportant. Hell, i treat some of my friends and colleagues more like idols than i treat actual idols!

Anyways, I had a huge realisation hit me yesterday night. Had a rather sudden awakening and change in my way of thinking.

I realised for the past year or two, i've been "hentak taki-ing". That is, marching on the same spot. I find it rather unhealthy.

@Roseanne: It's ok if you all don't believe me. Cos i don't believe myself either! -_- But i'm working hard. Anyways what's the task? I forgot -_-

2010-05-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

Tell me if you ever wake up from your little fantasy.

2010-05-16T20:05:00.001+08:00

Went out for dinner with parents. Got to practice driving for a while. Quite long haven't practice le! :D

Hahah. I realised one thing. The person who knows you best is still your mother.

The reason? : While we were eating/chatting. She suddenly brought up the topic of girlfriends. She said "不要傻傻地等一个女孩." NOTE THAT I HAVE NEVER TALKED TO HER ABOUT THIS KIND OF THINGS BEFORE!!!

Been reading some interesting things about my horoscope on twitter. eg. "When it comes to analysis, research, and data assimilation, no zodiac sign can hold a candle to a #Scorpio." This i can testify. LOL. A lot of times during work i will keep picking up gossips and tips and news unknowingly before alot of people even catch any wind of these news. "Wow! How you know so early!" is a phrase i always hear. HAHAHA.

#Scorpio instantly know what they like and don't like. If they choose you, they want you.

Mmmmm. Well this one don't need to elaborate bah.

2010-05-16T11:39:00.005+08:00

Starstrukk lyrics

Catchy song!! But don't know what they trying to do/show in the vid!! HAHA

So anyway, I'm going to Darwin, Australia on 12th July!! Coming back on 6th August.

Here's my shopping list (as adviced by seniors and ICs):

1) Lots of macadamia nuts

2) nougat

3) indigenious aboriginal flute thing(forgot the name)

4) Try seafood at fisherman's wharf

5) try the "rubbish bin" at the "rubbish bin" (lol)

6) local t-shirts and clothes

7) sunglasses

8) bag

9) souvenirs for the rest

10) got anyone wanna add to my list? :D

2010-05-03T18:53:00.001+08:00

Wishlist:

1) 24" or bigger hdmi monitor

2) PS3 controller

3) Split second

4) Modnation racers

5) Lost planet 2

6) GPS

So many things to buy!! But lack of funds!! Aaa!

2010-04-14T18:51:00.001+08:00

Help me go back to the cheerful and carefree me. Without a care in the world!

2010-04-13T08:30:00.004+08:00

I love work.

Helps me fight off those silly thoughts.

I promise i won't make the same mistake again.

Anyway, i think this blog needs some livening up!

2010-04-12T02:58:00.003+08:00

All that i want in my life right in front of me, but nothing i can do to obtain it.

Hate this stalemate.

Why do i care so much?

Can't ignore. Can't walk away.

What do i do?

2010-03-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

So, I was itching to buy some stuff for myself today. Hence i went for a mini shopping spree. Here's my haul for today :D

1) A pair of slippers from bata. My old ones were too big, keep getting in the way when i was driving, and they were peeling apart already :D

2) 2 PS3 games. Just because.

3) Wait... Why did i buy PS3 games when i don't have a PS3? Sooooooo. TADA!

A little late compared to others... But at least i bought it now! :D And again it's black too... Same with my slippers. Sorry CASS!

2010-03-28T11:07:00.005+08:00

YO! :D

Having another super long weekend again. This week is just as happening as last week... or maybe even more! :P

Recap:

Thurs: Watch alice in wonderland with Rose and Hus. Decent show. Tim Burton, Johnny Depp and a cute girl (Mia Wasikowska) as Alice. What could go wrong? XD Awesome start to my long weekend. OH! Also had a good haul at sans bookstore... Spent a mini fortune for 4 books :P

Friday: Lan gaming session with Squadron friends. Spent a few good hours shooting, stabbing, clubbing and blowing up zombies! After that went for dinner @ Ding Tai Fung and desert @ Ji De Chi. and lastly watched "How to train your dragon" Another good show, must watch! Lost of fun and laughter for the whole day.

Sat: Went out with sec buddies. Wanted to watch Kaiji(Some jap movie about gambling) at cineleisure but it was SOLD OUT! T_T Damn sad. So we milled around for a while then decided to go to PS to watch "diary of a wimpy kid" Among the 3 shows i've watched for the past 3 days i'd rate this one the lowest, but it's still a decent show. Full of cute humour about school life and growing up. :D

I just realised i went to JP for 2 out of the 3 days.. -_- Haha. Cineleisure was pretty good though, even though it's very crowded. Full of Eye candy :P

Oh ya, my driving license arrived! :D

That's about it for this week... Next week, Good friday! Till then!

2010-03-15T19:23:00.002+08:00

Hihi! long time no long post. Shall try to write something longer!

1) FINALLY PASSED MY DRIVING!! Finally don't need to head down to BBDC whenever i have time le! After so many lessons... HAHA. Damned relieved when the tester tell me i passed. He walk out of the tester's office still give a black face... Then walk over and sit down. I saw the results slip got like many lines... look like many mistakes. Damn scared already. Cos i didn't remember making many serious mistakes. Then he ask me how many times i tried already. I say 3 times. He say "wa, 3 times ah" then he slowly flip over the paper... then i saw PASSED! HAHA DAMN HAPPY :D

2) Drove my own family car for the first time! With my dad beside me and mum in backseat. Haha. still not very familiar with the car and outside road and parking. But nevermind, i will practice whenever i can! hahah

3) Applied for SIA scholarship. First time applying for such things.. Hope i filled up the thing properly. Haha. Dunno got chance to get or not.. Just pray bah.. hahah

4) I WANNA WATCH ALICE IN WONDERLAND, COP OUT, AND NEW PANDORAS BOX!! BUT NO TIME!!! I NEED A BREAK :(

2010-02-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

I just can't stop. Someday i will let you understand. Nothing else matters, everything else is just dust and air.

2010-01-19T09:50:00.002+08:00

Short and sweet new year resolutions:

1) Pass driving!!

2) Be a better crew chief

3) Go on detachment overseas

4) ORD smoothly

5) Lose more weight

6) Go overseas on holiday

7) Be more proactive in whatever i do.

2010-01-19T09:43:00.001+08:00

I need to stop deceiving myself.

2009-10-04T19:08:00.002+08:00

Very looong never update. Blogger is finally not screwed up. Haha. Been very busy with work and play last few weeks. Some of my activities:

Made some fighter jet models

JAS-39A Gripen.

And the Plane i work on almost everyday, The F16.

Heh. My sis also got me 2 shirts for my birthday. One is

The other is in the washing machine.. Haha. Thanks sis!

2009-09-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

So disappointed.

I think when a person thinks watching a video is more important than talking to a friend.. It really makes me lose hope. I can't understand.

Stop talking or thinking as if i have a problem. Just stop. Reflect and realise it's you. Your insecurites and stubornness. I can't take it anymore. Grow up. Stop being so immature.

2009-08-26T15:15:00.002+08:00

So long since i've posted something.. But really got nothing to write. Hah.

2009-07-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm tired of being the backseat driver.

Don't take me for an idiot.

Don't take advantage of me.

Show me some respect. Let me have some pride. Put in some effort.

You don't know me. Not at all.

Sometimes i feel like i try too hard. For nothing at all. It's not worth it. What's the point.

I need to live my life.

In the end, someday. You will understand. You will regret.

No more.

I'm glad i met my fellow FLCs in TAB. We can be idiots. Talk crap all day. Sweat and get fucked by instructors together. And nobody gives a damn. At the end of the day, we come out smiling. That's what matters.

Though he will probably never read this. But sorry Mun kidd. I always diao you cos i admire how you can smile all day. I like your smile, but i also like the sianed face you give when i diao you. :P

2009-06-22T20:04:00.008+08:00

VERY HAPPENING WEEKEND!

INCOMING PHOTO SPAM!

First!

Video Games Live concert at indoor stadium

Cosplay contest.

The Performers haven't come yet. Can see the instruments. Haha.

Nice Lights! Can see the conductor infront! Haha.

Video. One of my favourite songs. This one not taken by me though. My camera dunno why the sound very screwed up. Hai

NEXT! RSAF RUNWAY CYCLING

35th NSF FLC DCCs

Here look like very few people. But actually SUPER ALOT OF PEOPLE!! All at the start of the runway.

F-16D 52+

Exhaust.

LASTLY, FATHERS' DAY DINNER

Went to Sakura at Admiralty Park. Nice place. Quite beautiful scenery. Haha. But my wallet got hole cos i pay for the bill. :(

OH! I also passed my BTT. Quite easy. Alot of common sense question. Haha. I can go get provisional license and have practical lessons now! Yea! Haha.

2009-06-10T06:34:00.002+08:00

So it's a deal then! :)

I will take this time to train up.

New determination, new motivation.

I'll be a better person when the time comes. Count on it.

I've already waited so long. What can waiting a little more do?

Patience. Discipline.

It's a gamble. I just hope it won't backfire on me.

But it's still a goal. A direction. Now i have something to look forward to. Something to help me carry on living.

2009-06-07T20:49:00.005+08:00

I feel so empty.

There is an aching void in my life.

I'm just plodding along everyday. Without direction. Without enthusiasm. Without drive.

Tired. Exhausted. Lethargic.

Help me. Give me the courage to seek and follow my direction.

I sound so emo. Hah.

I will stop procrastinating. Stop doing things half-fucked. I will accomplish what i set out to do. I will change.

Oh BTW. The gal from Blood: The last vampire is so hot. Too bad the movie wasn't very good. Heh.

2009-06-03T19:36:00.001+08:00

Hihi, back for another quick update! Haha. Last Saturday had a small gathering at my house. Haha. Fun afternoon filled with Wii, mahjong and poker cards! Haha.

I found these pictures on my comp.. Haha. I think my sis made them/found on the net. I think they a bit emo but yet very pretty. And a bit represents my thoughts at the moment.

Life really makes a fool out of people sometimes. Why can't i have the willpower? I don't understand. I want to understand. I need to understand. It's hard to find much joy or enthusiasm in the things i'm doing now when my mind is else where. Somebody help me please!

So frustrated.

2009-05-21T18:01:00.006+08:00

Yoz,

So now i'm posted to TAB. Super near my house, just a 15 mins bus ride. Haha.

Last few days been doing nothing much except for admin matters and sai gang at squadron. But today reported to MTF for training. Nothing much i can say here. Haha. (if want to know then ask me. :P) There's a specialist mess that's even cooler than the AFS one, with free pool tables and arcade games! Hahaha. But the gym is lousier though. -_-

I think i'm gonna go deaf soon from hearing all the jets passing overhead. Whole body will vibrate de. SUPER loud. Many familiar faces at TAB. Sec school friends, JC friends, AFS friends, and other random friends. I think i will enjoy the rest of my 1 year +++ stay there. C:

Oh ya, Last saturday had a birthday surprise for Hui Fen at vivo. Pics on FB if you're interested. Haha. =)

Anyway, saw this Murphy's Law poster in the TAB spec mess. Rather interesting and funny to read. Some examples:

Nothing is as easy as it looks.
Everything takes longer than you think.
Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.
If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. Corollary: If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then.
If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.
If you perceive that there are four possible ways in which a procedure can go wrong, and circumvent these, then a fifth way, unprepared for, will promptly develop.
Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.
If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.
Nature always sides with the hidden flaw.
Mother nature is a bitch.
It is impossible to make anything foolproof because fools are so ingenious.
Whenever you set out to do something, something else must be done first.
Every solution breeds new problems.

Hahaha. Murphy is such the optimist.

More Murphy's Law here. http://roso.epfl.ch/dm/murphy.html

Interesting hor? Haha. I find the Love laws quite funny. HAha.

Oh yes, a nice quote from one of my enciks: Disappointment is temporary. Regret if for a lifetime. I like this quote, meaningful. Haha. Something i can live my life by. =D

I've also accepted NTU's offer of Aerospace Engineering le. Don't want to think so much now, just following my gut feelings. ^_^

My gut feelings are wieeeeerd sometimes. Gives me alot of deja vu moments and strange dreams. Recently these are increasing in frequency again. I wonder if it's a sign? Haix.

Nothing much more that i can write. (Don't wanna get into trouble writing restricted or classified stuffs >_>) Heh, Bye byez

2009-05-09T19:41:00.005+08:00

Caught Star Trek this afternoon!

One word: EPIC!

Haha. I'm such a sucker for sci-fi. :D So many great movies coming out this month... I want to watch Transformers, Night at the museum 2 , Aliens vs Monsters (or is it Monsters vs Aliens?), Terminator... Omg so many. I think i will save money and watch transformers only and download the rest. LOL.

Got so many things i want to type out here. But i think i will keep them inside me first. I just know that i never want to see her sad.

Till then... Live long and prosper! |\/|

2009-05-02T20:33:00.002+08:00

Happy Labour day! Haha. (late by one day but whatever)

I think it's a bit ironic that everyone gets to take a break on a holiday called LABOUR day. Haha. But it's still a holiday so who cares. Hahah. Watched wolverine on friday. Quite a nice show, action packed. HAha. Just sad that they didn't give the side characters like gambit and deadpool much screen time, was rather disappointed with that. But overall the movie was enjoyable. Decent superhero action flick.

But after the movie stoned the rest of the day away. -_- zzz

Then today went to Daniel's house to play. I was supposed to meet him at Westmall, then so coincidentally bump into Alan! Haha. He super emo. Now he understands the Tekong mood and lifestyle. HAHA. Ok. So went to Dan's house for whole afternoon of gaming with Jphua. Not very productive but at least didn't stone the whole afternoon. Heh.

Having alot of wierd dreams lately. Don't know why. Sigh. Lol.

Feel like changing blogskin also. But can't find anything that suits my mood/taste. HAHA. zzz.

Can't wait for next week. No more stay-in! YAY!

2009-04-30T21:58:00.005+08:00

Received my letters from both unis! Haha.

Aerospace engineering from NTU and Mechanical engineering from NUS. Most probably going for Aerospace engineering for various reasons. =)

To those who haven't received their letters, or didn't get the courses they wanted, don't lose heart! The waiting sucks (I know), but when it finally arrives, the excitement of opening the letter and looking at the words printed on the letter is really worth it! :)

Somehow i feel like my life is already planned nicely by some higher being. Anyone feels like so?. Feels really wierd. Somehow my life is rather clear of obstacles in what i want to do. I always seem to get what i want. (Academically wise. Others not so much ;) ) Some people call it luck, some people call it destiny. I personally have no idea. Haha. I just hope my "luck" won't end soon. Especially with that Seletar Aerospace Hub nearing completion when i finish my uni course. =D

OH YA, today after i booked out and went to get tickets for the Wolverine show tomorrow i bumped into a gal friend (not girlfriend!) from my secondary school days. Haha. Rather surprised. Haven't seen her in a while. We were in the same class for the whole 4 years of my secondary school life and pretty good friends, so i guess you can call it fate. Haha.

Dunno what else to write here. Hmmm. Lemme post a song which i've been addicted to for the past week. Hehe.

Do you remember when we didn't care?
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do
Say It's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you

2009-04-19T12:37:00.009+08:00

YoZ!

This weekend was one of the craziest weekend i ever had. Haha. Why? I went to a 1 day 1 night chalet with people i met online! Hahah. They are my guild members in the online game that i was really crazy about: world of warcraft. Even though i played with them for a very long time already, i only met SOME of them in the face only once. So, my close friend decided to organise a chalet to sort of meet everyone. Haha.

Mahjong, Poker, Rocking on guitar hero, booze... All guilty.

Really crazy night. It was more of a drinking party than a chalet. And by chalet i don't mean soft drinks. Cos most of us are adults, so almost everybody brought along some alcohol! Some people just got dead drunk. (and really i mean dead drunk) But i very guai, only drink one bottle of beer and one shot of absolut raspberry vodka. (35% alcohol content) The vodka was really.... hot. Haha. One small shot glass (and i really mean small) downed, can feel the raspberry smell gush into the nose, then immediately whole body heat up. Like, WHOA! Haha. Still got people bring Martell cordeon bleu (40+ % alcohol content). Didn't dare to try. Haha. Scared i get drunk cannot go home. Now still a bit feel like puking and sleepy(only slept 2 hours) Haha. Pics next time. (got the drunk guys also!)

Heh, anyway, next week gonna go breathe some tear gas... Crap. Haha. Gonna need to dress up like teletubby go to the gas chamber. Wonder what it will be like. >_<

OH ya, my sis received a hamster from her friend as a birthday present. Haha. Very cute. Lazy to upload pics. Next time. :P

Gonna sign off with this nice "story" i stumbled upon somewhere i forgot. Haha.

any in the end.

His teacher then said, "And that is love."

On another day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is marriage? How can I
Find it?"

His teacher answered, "There is a thriving forest in front. Walk forward
without turning back, and chop down only one tree. If you find the tallest
tree, then you have found marriage."

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with a tree. The tree
was not thriving, and it was not tall either. It was only an ordinary
tree.

His teacher asked, "Why did you chop down such an ordinary tree?"

Plato answered, "Because of my previous experience. I walked halfway
through the forest, but returned with empty hands. This time, I saw this
tree, and I felt that it was not bad, so I chopped it down and brought it
back. I did not want to miss the opportunity."

His teacher then said, "And that is marriage."

2009-04-12T15:42:00.006+08:00

Payday week! Haha. That means LOTS of activities.. I'll let pictures do the talking. Hehe.

Good Friday: Visited fish farms and vege farms and Roseanne's farm in kranji.

After that went to Jurong area to meet up with my parents and sister. Went for buffet dinner at Sakura restaurant to celebrate my sis's birthday. Haha.

Saturday:

Morning went prawn fishing with my bmt friends.

I only caught one :( got like 3 more bite my bait but i pull too early/ late and they got away. Damn sianz. But the feeling of finally catching one is very satisfying! Haha. Some of the prawns look more like mini lobster than prawns, got huge blue pincers one. Waiting for the prawns to bite was kinda boring, but overall prawn fishing quite fun and addictive. Haha. I wanna go again!

After that rushed to lot 1 to meet Alan, Jun Xiang, Jon Lam, and Daniel for pool.

After pool went and watched The Sniper with Dan, JX and Alan. Not a bad movie. Haha. Near the end Edison Chen said something like he will welcome any challengers, then he sort of run away into the sunset. Maybe got some link to his death threats in real life? HAHA.

Oh ya, last last week had bowling and pool outing with GC. Was a bit lazy to update on that, but the others have already posted about that, so i won't talk about that. Pics on their blogs too. Haha.

Ohh, here's an interesting quote: Why do straight guys never look straight, but those who look straight are not straight?

HAHAHA

2009-04-04T13:07:00.002+08:00

Focus! Zhen Qin! Focus! Life is not all about girls and games! Focus on the tasks ahead!!

2009-03-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

Yoyo!

So, i'm now in the Singapore Air Force as a technician! Haha. At the core of my passion: aerospace.

Getting used to the transition from army to air force. ALOT of difference. Better food (slightly), More female officers (yay), more guy officers (boo), new number 3 uniform (looks cool), one dollar beers and the all ranks mess: air force one (woot) and lastly... CAN BUY FHM FROM THE MAMA SHOP INSIDE CAMP! (WTF?!?) Hahahaha.

Tomorrow is last day of AOP..(Airmen Orientation Program). This whole week is AOP where we learn all about RSAF, most of the talks are really interesting but some are just downright boring. Dunno why, but once airplanes and fighter jets come on the screen i go wide awake and alert. Hehe :P

Anyway, next week onwards have to stay in for 2 months for my technician course. Hope it's not too boring. :P been enjoying my last few days so far... 2 months more shouldn't be too hard. :D

2009-03-22T15:12:00.004+08:00

POP LOH! Hahaha

Finally... After 3 months, I don't need to go back to tekong le. Yay!! Don't know how i survived the 24km route march. We started walking from around 1030 PM and walked throughout the night until around 6 AM!! Really walk until like zombies. Walk halfway eyes will struggle to keep open... then slowly close. Then start to walk sideways bump into my buddy. Hahaha. Really funny when i think back now. Must really thank my walking buddy. Cause near the end i was really nearly gonna collapse from lack of sleep. Then he chat with me as we walk, talk about school, CCAs, whatever we could think off. Talk talk talk then suddenly don't feel like sleeping le. Very wierd. Then after that i was told to carry the company flag. Haha. Like morale boost, carry the flag leading the whole company walking one portion of the route march. something i will remember forever... just don't ask me do do it again! HAHA.

And on friday i received my posting order. Supposed to go online and check at 10 AM. then i log onto the website. wait................................................................................ until 12 o clock still cannot know my posting. Too many people accessing the system lag until cannot load. hai. so i went out with my mom to get my new phone. Haha. Cos when i went into NS my mom kapok my old phone and use.. so i only had my crappy phone with no camera. so now i went and got a new phone.... haha.

My new phone! haha Samsung pixon.

So, anyway. my posting. Haha. Posted to Toa payoh Air Force School. To be a technician. Damn happy when i saw it, almost jump out of my seat. Haha. Cos from young i was very fascinated by airplanes, so now i want to apply for aerospace eng in uni. This is like a practical trial for me. Haha. can sort of preview and learn some stuff early. :D Very lucky break for me. Maybe this is what they call the UPs and DOWNs of life.

2009-03-15T17:25:00.001+08:00

Loving someone is difficult. Trying to stop loving someone, is even more difficult.

Silencing and suppressing my heart... More difficult than it sounds.

2009-03-08T16:24:00.002+08:00

6th of march

A level results released. Went back to school to get my results. Heart was beating damn fast when i get from Mr Wong. (almost called him Encik instead of Teacher O_O) Got a great shock! AAAAC. OMG! My weakest subject, the one i expected to do very badly got a C. GP, the bane of all A level students.... I got an A! Hahahahah! YESSSS! Damn happy. Then i looked around. Saw all kinds of faces... From disappointed to happy. Reminds me of O levels. Feel quite sad for Husaini for his GP.

Things are changing alot for me. A lot of things i used to care alot about... Starting to neglect and not care so much. Picking up old hobbies like reading. Haha. Too much free time in camp. Too much free time also allows me to think about alot of things. I realised that my friends were right. I should not dwell so much on something, or rather someone that is out of my reach. I realised that i need to move on with my own life. I need to ensure my future. I need to be doing what i like to do. And with my decent results... I feel that i can do that now. But still. There were some very memorable and enjoyable times. Even though it is you yuan wu fen, i am still very honored and happy to have this person as a friend. Haha.

One more week to POP... Then another result will come in. Posting results. Haha. Hope i get a decent posting!

2009-02-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

Yoyo! I'm back again. Heh.

Recently i finally spent some money buying things for myself. (other than necessities lah.) Bought a pair of headphones and 2 books.

Oh ya. Just now went shopping with hus cass and rose. Bought a pair of jeans also. Haha. Old pairs getting very loose le. So just nice got promotion a pair of jeans only $16. So must buy. Haha. (Yes i'm cheap -_-) I look at hus buying a plain looking shirt for $50. Aiyo. Haha. I bu she de spend so much on a shirt sia. Maybe those kind formal or new year clothes i spend but just normal clothes so ex. Maybe is cos my pay too little. Hah. Cough cough government please pay me more!!

Yesterday went to pass to daniel his new psp charger. (i sold him my psp. :P) and watch valkyrie. Not a bad movie about hitler and germany. The colonel really so loyal to his country. HAIL GERMANY. haha.

Anyway, Life on Tekong getting quite monotonous now. Almost all the important activities all finish le, and this week had my last SOC for my BMT. yay. No need to do the annoying obstacles for a while. Now almost everyday PT after PT. Not saying it's not good, it's good! can lose more weight. haha. Even though life there can be boring but me and my buddies all have damn lot of fun in the bunk. Everyday play and laugh and gay like no tomorrow. Everyone very high cos POP coming soon!! 4 more weeks!! Haha. Oh ya. speaking of POP, anyone wanna come for my POP parade? haha.

Oh, Tuesday going discovery centre for some army outing thing. yay for more slack day. Haha. ah ya, A levels results coming soon... Really scared for my Chem. Hope i can get some decent results so that i can get into a good course in uni. Haha.

Recently some things also happening. Should i give up? I don't know, but now really leaning in that direction. Losing my drive and purpose. Trying so hard not to think about it. So tired really.

Gotta book in again. Cya.

2009-02-08T19:40:00.003+08:00

Hi! Quite long never post le... Don't really know what to write about also. Haha.

Last last week was Chinese New Year. This year wasn't as fun as other years. Maybe is cos i have to worry about booking in on time. -_- Ang bao collection wasn't too bad la, 200+ close to 300. Haha. Oh ya, also went for grenade throw. Forgot if it was before or after new year. Haha. Damnnnnnnnnnn nice. The shockwave and sound of the grenade gives you goosebumps like sense of satisfaction that kind. Haha. Once in a lifetime experience.

Last week was sit test. A bit like mini field camp, but this time got officers coming to assess our "leadership capability". So we had to complete some mini missions like blow up a bridge ( no explosives... just act only. Lol.) Got alot of wartime situations, what will we do etc etc.

Now all the important events all finish le... Life getting very bland and boring inside. Haha. Everyday do almost same things - Close combat training (want fight me? :P), SOC, running, etc. always looking forward to weekends. Sigh.

Just now went to mind cafe with GC. Play boardgames and eat. First time see so many kinds of board games, so many never even heard of before. Haha. Quite fun =).Later 9 o clock have to book in le. This week not too bad quite late then book in. Haha. Can't wait for P.O.P.!

2009

2009-01-01T18:11:00.003+08:00

Yoyoyo!
Haha. First post of 2009! Happy new year to everyone!
Rather long book out break for me. Only booking in on Saturday. Haha.
My cough getting worse and worse >.> Sigh.

Life rather tiring on Tekong recently. Had a rather important parade to rehearse for. A bit similar to how national day parade is. Haha. Quite fun, but damn tiring.

Yesterday went for a mini movie marathon with sec school buddies. Watched 7 pounds and Transporter 3 back to back. Haha. 7 pounds storyline a little confusing and slow, make me fall asleep. Transporter 3 was slightly better. Haha. Reach home already like 2 AM, about to collapse already.

Gonna go rest now... Bye byeee. Haha.

2008-12-25T19:15:00.003+08:00

So i'm out again on Christmas book out!

Haha. Today went to watch the new jim carry comedy "Yes Man" with my sec school buddies. Quite a funny and meaningful show. It's about a pessimistic person who only says no becoming a very optimistic person who only says yes. But along the way he realises that he cannot say yes to everything through certain events. Rather enjoyable to watch. Haha.

Tekong life starting to get rather mundane. Maybe it's just me getting used to it. Haha. Starting to hate the food there now. It's chicken chicken chicken every meal, everyday. Really sick of chicken now. Heh. And don't get me started on the mushy broccoli. Lol. But something fun is that i learnt alot of songs and cheers. Got alot of retarded and perverted songs. Haha. Stuff like: Got no time to masturbate yah, but got time for stand by bed (Bunk check) yah! Got no time for chocolate bar yah, but got time for chin up bar yah! Hahaha. Got many many verses comparing normal life and army life. Very interesting. Haha.

Anyway, it's christmas today, so MERRY CHRISTMAS! Haha. Meeting her tomorrow. Hope she likes the christmas gift i got for her. :P

2008-12-20T18:00:00.006+08:00

So it's book out day again!

Haha... To many people weekends may not mean much.. But to NSmen, weekends are like gold. It was hilarious to see the people who are stuck on Tekong's faces as we wave them goodbye. HAHA.

Went to do some light christmas shopping today, and also visited the new library at Lot 1. (Whoa damnnnnn long never went to a public library to borrow books already.) Borrowed some books to bring into camp and read during when free. Haha.

Training progressive getting tougher..But i got sick:( vomitting and diarrheoa. Once again can't anyhow say anything here. Haha. Oh ya, the sounds of rifles and machine gun fire is simply music... Very loud music. :P

Oh ya, i got the good progress award from school. Haha. :D

Christmas and new year soon.... Hoping for a chance to see certain people that i miss alot. Haha.

NS...

2008-12-08T09:51:00.004+08:00

So... Now i'm serving National service...

Offically BOTAK =(

Was able to book out today cos of Hari Raya.. Thanks to the muslims :D

Miss everyone alot. Especially my parents and someone..

Can't say much due to security reasons... Haha.

Next book out tentatively on the 19th. Looking forward to it!

Oh ya, Meeting my "Wife"** on the 15th! Hahaha. Will take good care of "her". HAHA

**In case you don't know. The "Wife" i'm talking about is my rifle. HAHAHA

Oh, And Prom night was great. :P

2008-11-30T12:52:00.003+08:00

YOYO!
Quite long haven't update le...
This was quite a fruitful week! :D Haha.
Recap of what i did this week:

Monday:
Went out with ___ ___
Watched madagascar 2 (the baby alex very cute, the commando penguins are damn funny)
Got lost looking for Far East Plaza (I very lousy i know >.> Morning got see map where to go but once i saw her i forget everything liao hai.)
Went to STAGE, then shop for a while, then dinner, then sent her home. =)

Friday:
GC outing
Watched City of Ember (decent show, but a bit cliche plotline, lol)
Play arcade, smack the bishi bashi master thing until handpain but still last LOL -_-
then play the bowling machine, we put AHSEE and GC as the name for our score LOL
next went to metro, lame around go children's section and play

Saturday:
Went prom shopping with Wei Ann, Daniel and Husaini
Spent around 150 bucks on shoes and pants. Haha. Heart pain. But nvm next time work can wear.
then afternoon/evening was my grandma's Birthday party. (I forgot she how old le >_< lost track)
Very very very long never meet my relatives le, like since mid year or so. hai.

Sunday:
SLACK AT HOME!! HAHAHA.

Ok i gotta go finish packing my NS stuff le.. byeeeeee byeeeeeeee
2 more days!!

Saying Goodbye to mathematics

2008-11-08T10:32:00.004+08:00

Saying Goodbye to mathematics... Found this poem, thought it was quite cool :P

The Square Root of 3

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

Found this while surfing the net... Congrats to Obama!

birthday :D

2008-10-28T08:49:00.015+08:00

Woo! Finally 18 le :)

Hehe. Mostly a quiet birthday, but still one of the best i've ever had. (so far :P)

I'll let pics do the talking...

The box for the cake from breadtalk. The Box is veryyyyy cool. Looks normal now right?

After you open it.. Looks like a flower! Hahaha! Forgot to take picture of the cake before cutting.. So take what's left of it. :P The cake very expensive leh.. My mom say it's $58. Haha. Eat liao also heartpain :P

My parents also gave me an EXTRA LARGE angbao... Hahahah :P

Gifts from my sis.. Thanks sis! :D

This is from....*deep breath* Wei Ann, Dexter, Jeslina, Zhi Ying, Shu Qing. (i think) *breathe out* THANKS! Sorry if i miss anyone out :P Oh yah, thanks Mr Loh for the cake! :D

Thanks to Joshua Tan, Xian Yu and Daniel for treating me to watch movie (Eagle Eye is very nice) and accompanying me the whole afternoon :D

Once again thanks to these people for their messages and gifts... in NO order:

My Family :D

Zhi Lun (birthday boy also!)

Xian Yu

Joshua Tan

Wei Ann

Dexter

Joshua Chong

Daniel

Eu Ginn

Mr Loh

Ali

Angela

Jeslina

Shu Qing

Zhi Ying

Cassandra

Roseanne

Hui Fen :)

Many Many Many thanks!! :D :D

Lastly...

My room is invaded by notessss! Send halppppp

Hahaha.

nearing the end

2008-10-19T13:45:00.012+08:00

So... We're nearing the end of our journey of JC life. Thought i'd write up a tribute to my friends :) Mega long post inc!

First, to my "Blue" Clique

1) Wei Ann

Yo yo! One of my best buddies. Really enjoyed your company throughout these years. How long has it been? Primary 5, 6, Sec 1 - 4, J1 - 2. Wow, like almost 8 years! Haha. Thanks for being such a great friend. Thanks for always being there, thanks for listening to me when i need company. You were the first one find out my secret. :P Thank you so much for all the fond memories, be it in gaming, in studying or just everyday life! :) Even though we have quarrels at times. (Like so long never quarrel with you le, maybe should start one. LOL)

2) Xian Yu

Hey Hey. Another of my best friends. Almost 6 years already huh? Still remember the times in Sec school. Even though Sec 1 and 2 in same class but feel like never talk much. Only when Sec 3 and 4 then the "fun" times begin. Haha. Will never forget how we pushed open Vincent Lee's toilet door and get busted, but in the end it was a complete joke. Haha, Tiger's face and words forever burned into my memories. :D Don't watch too much hentai on your new comp! LOL.

3) Joshua Tan

Hi Hi! Mr. Craziest person in the group. Seriously will never forget the crazy things you can think up. LOL. Hint hint: Blood seal, Cow counselling, Blue sect, etc etc etc. Hahaha. Loads of fun. (Even though sometimes is just retarded. :P) Very sad that won't be able to join you in WoW full time after A's :( But no matter, i will be able to play from time to time after BMT :)

P.S. : You really getting really really crazy over this WoW and guild thing. Lol.

4) Choon Yik

Oi Oi! Earth/Equator! Stop lagging in game la. LOL. Gotta admire your 肚量 man.(Pun intended) Even though everyone always poke fun at you, you never seem to get angry. Haha.

Second, my other Sec school friends.

1) Alan

Hello, heh, realised like never talk to you much at all. Kinda sorry we have a few differences and misunderstandings. And yes, i do find you kinda annoying at times, but i guess that's how you are unique. Well, ganbatte for A's!

2) Josh

EH SUP MAN LOL. Damn sad you went and retain. :( Class damn quiet without you. Sigh. You're like the life of the class loh. Haha. Good loh you promos over liao. /Jealous. Hehe. But nvm next year you shall taste the agony of A's! LOL. Good luck!

3) Jeslina, Shu Qing, Zhiying

Hihi.. haha. Sorry me and my buddies always sooooo noisy during tuition sessions. :P Thanks for putting up with it. Haha. Jeslina and Shu Qing like martial artists. Jeslina -> Hand smack skill, Shu Qing -> Pinching Skill. Lucky i not so naughty very rarely get targeted. Poor WA. LOL.

4) To all others (Jin Zhe, Yi yao, Zulhafiz, Rachel, Choy nam etc etc etc etc)

Good Luck for A's!!! Or whatever exam you have in poly! Hope to see you at the class outing after A's! :)

Now for the JC Clique :D

1) Daniel

Hiyo! Haha. You're a true friend. You were always there on Msn to listen to my problems, to give advice, to console. I feel like i've neglected you these couple of months due to certain matters. >_> But, always remember, have faith in your abilities, cause i believe you have the potential. :D

2) THE GC! (Husaini, Hui Fen, Roseanne, Cassandra, She Hui)

Heh, Don't know why suddenly in J2 become closer with you all. Really enjoyed the night study sessions and the LT/GC sessions. HAHA. Thank you all for all the help and encouragement! JYJYJYJY FOR A'S!!! :D

2.1) Husaini

Hellox. Haha. Mr president of da GC. Can't seem to stop talking. =x But thanks for adding colour to my life. haha. HALP ME IMPROVE MY CHEM!! OMG!! LOL. Oh and Jia you for your physics. Haha. Don't hesitate to come ask me :P

2.2)Roseanne, Cassandra, She Hui, Hui Fen

Haha, Type so long a bit tired liao. ZZZ. So now clump everyone together. HAHA. Roseanne: Good Luck on your Five Year Sweetheart! LOL. Cassandra: Stop suanning me!!! Haha. She Hui: WAHHH how you play your pet society one score so high!! Hui Fen: Got a lot of things i want to say.. But nvm. XP

Wa.. Type so much until hand tired. But still got a lot of people haven't say... Nvm la next time then finish. Ok Cya!

Letter Bomb!

2008-10-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

I JUST RECEIVED A LETTERBOMB! OMG!

Okay la actually no big deal. Exaggeration. LOL.

Just got my NS enlistment letter in the mail.

Enlistment date: 3rd December.

THE DAY AFTER PROM! OMG!!!!!

I might be forced to go to grad night bald... sob sob. Hopefully not though i will resist!

2008-10-10T17:15:00.002+08:00

Farewell assembly!

Last day of official school. :(

First, some pics!

The last P.E. Lesson :(

The last C.T. lesson from Mr. Wong. :( (He looks like he's picking his nose)

The GC! Guess what it stands for. (Hint: it's not Graphing calculator :))

Abit lazy to upload the farewell assembly vids. Haha. Emo...Will miss this fun bunch. :)

07S18! Ganbatte for 'A's yea?! Then we have a nice class outing and prom night after that. :)

mother teresa

2008-10-06T18:32:00.005+08:00

人们经常是不讲道理的、没有逻辑的和以自我为中心的，不管怎样，你要原谅他们；
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;Forgive them anyway.

即使你是友善的，人们可能还是会说你自私和动机不良，不管怎样，你还是要友善；
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;Be kind anyway.

当你成功的时候，你会有一些虚假的朋友和一些真实的敌人，不管怎样，你还是要取得成功；
If you are successful, you will win some false friends.And some true enemies;Succeed anyway.

即使你是诚实的和坦率的，人们可能还是会欺骗你，不管怎样，你还是要诚实和坦率；
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;Be honest and frank anyway.

你多年来建造的东西，有人在一夜之间把它摧毁，不管怎样，你还是要去建造；
What you spend years building,Someone could destroy overnight;Build anyway.

如果你找到了平安和喜乐，他们可能会嫉妒你，不管怎样，你还是要喜乐；
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;Be happy anyway.

你今天做的善事，人们往往明天就会忘记，不管怎样，你还是要做善事；
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;Be good anyway.

即使把你最好的东西给了这个世界，也许这些东西永远都不够，不管怎样，把你最好的东西给这个世界；
Give the world the best you have,And it may never be enough;Give the world the best you have anyway.

你看，说到底，它是你和上帝之间的事，而决不是你和他人之间的事。
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;It is never between you and them anyway.

——德蕾莎修女 Mother Teresa of Calcutta

Article courtesy of Daniel.

While i'm no Christian, i still find this very meaningful! Simple guidelines to live life by. Gotta run.. Tag please!!! :P Or this place like a bit dead :(

sigh

2008-10-02T19:20:00.018+08:00

Found this song in my comp!

Old song but still quite nice.

像童话里的故事可恶的安排

明明两个人都相爱却偏偏遇阻碍

非得让人痛彻心扉才能证明爱存在

我们如何找到出路

通往爱的国度

闭上眼默念三遍 call my name我就出现

有时候寂寞难掩像不醒的梦靥

闭着眼数了三遍你应该要出现

但你却又食言让我看不见

如果你能明白这场相爱有多难

像童话中的傀儡

口是心非

以为你找到了幸福我却感到好无助

只能笑笑去祝福偷偷掉着泪

我们拚命想找出路

通往爱的国度

闭上眼默念三遍 call my name我就出现

有时候寂寞难掩像不醒的梦靥

闭着眼数了三遍你应该要出现

但你对我食言不在我身边

永远究竟多么遥远

为何我总无缘无法好好体验

爱不像你跟我说的

简单像许个愿

闭上眼默念三遍

call my name and i'll be there

有时候寂寞难掩

像不醒的梦靥闭着眼数了三遍

你应该要出现

但你对我食言不在我身边

但你对我食言

不在我身边

Got back Geog results. Surprisingly high. (relatively) My rank points still got pulled down by chem though. Sigh. Time to make peace with Mr. Chemistry. *Holds out something to Mr. Chemistry* "Would you accept this offering of effort in studying? Mr. Chemistry?" :(

Don't take a specific and temporary failure for a permanent defeat.

Prelims results

2008-10-01T19:55:00.005+08:00

Yoz, School started again...

Got back most of the prelim papers. Results rollcall inc.

Phy: ~67-68

Kinda disappointed never get A cos paper 1 was very promising. 35/40! But still not too bad la got improve from mid year.

Chem: 34

Dropped quite a bit. Sigh. Nothing much to say here, my chem sucks as usual. Time to hound Husaini to teach me some more.

Math: 52.5 (After mod)

Not very good but at least maintained from mid years. A bit disappointed i guess due to the numerous careless mistakes i made. :(

GP: 66

Wow. First time scoring so high for GP. Kinda stunned but really happy. :D Guess i got lucky on the essay. :P

Haven't got back Geog yet but i don't have much high hopes for it. Think i messed up the paper.

Heh, Daniel made this for me. Looks kinda wierd. HAHA. But i like it. Thanks Dan!

He made a few other for other people in S18 too. If you wanna see can look for me. All of them are really interesting, especially certain people's pictures. :P

And today went to Jlam's house. At first wanted to study, but eventually get sucked into the mahjong group. Sigh. Why am i so easily distracted!!

:( FOCUS!!

Now is the time to study like mad for 'A's

No more procrastination, no more complacency, no more second chances. I will concentrate and not think about unnecessary things.

Sigh. Nothing to say le. Oh well, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims and Happy Children's Day!!

See ya!